a friend.
2006-03-11 || 6:08 p.m.

GOOD AFTERNOON!

YUNNING: yea i agree i thought you were supposed to come back beautiful and graceful. but you are so fair its no wonder you get burnt. :D love too!

jiamin: YOU ARE BAAACK. :D did you miss me?

estelle: awww. why??

melissa: :D:D:D ditto jiamin's reply!

xinkai: OKAY THANKYOU DARLING FOR PEI-ING ME hahaha ^^ you made the camp really fun for me too! hehehe i would be lonely in 2/12 without you too. :D you are welcommmmmmed. im just naturally warm so it didn't take much to warm you up! *MWAH* thanks for confiding in me too. (:


i just finished blog surfing. and im totally not in the mood to blog.

ARGHHH.

okay i just want to talk about a friend.

we started off rocky. like normal i know you you know me thing. but because of something we became close and remained good friends ever since. but she never really confided in me, like totally. someone else was always closer. that someone else became my close friend for a while, and she was heartbroken. but she moved on, and found new friends and a new motive in life. i wanted to be a real confidante and everything but everytime, someone, something is between.

recently i tried asking her. i told her i wanted to be someone she can trust. she had bonded with other people ive never really knew. in fact, she's bonded with everyone else but me, somehow.

she told me keep the friendship that way, so things wont get complicated. perhaps, but everytime i think of her i would have a pang of sadness. i used to have many friends, called confidantes. many friends i can cry on and talk to all the time. i was close to a lot of people. but after that "frozen" period sometime last year, i lost all of them but a few. and its too late to get them back.

no matter how hard i try now.

ive lost it havent i? it seems like the harder i try the harder it gets.

sigh.

i have a lot of pent up frustrations. i think i should start a private blog, where no one can read and i can use real names.

brilliant & ridiculous


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